Ok, as I figured; operation eating again has turned into an all out binge. I'm totally overeating now that "I'm allowed to eat." Fuck, gotta pull it back in again. Didn't help to have the shower weekend, then my family came to visit and left cheeze-its and cereal and bread. Fuck. I feel like I need to live alone, clean out the fridge and only have available the things I can eat. Fuck. How can I find that middle ground I'm looking for???